Saturday, May 14, 2011

My hiatus

Does everyone get so burned out when they're writing that they go a week or so where they don't want to even think about writing? Because that's how I've been this past week. I've taken a week's "hiatus" if you will. I hadn't even been in the mood to blogt. It's like I went two straight weeks of thinking and breathing my story every minute of the day that I just burned myself out. I would wake up in the middle of the night and when I'd try to fall back asleep I was thinking about my book, it had completely taken over my life. I was taking every spare moment of my time and putting it towards my book to think, write, edit. In the mean time I read about a fifteen and twenty-two year old who've had books published and that was a little discouraging. It doesn't help that when I reread what I've wrote other than the dialogue I'm not loving my writing, is that normal? Am I trying too hard? Have I not found my style? I even hate rereading my blogs where all I seem to be doing is complain. I mean, granted, I'm not doing it to another person only here, but I hate listening to others whine and complain. Maybe it has something to do with it just not being up to my standards. Even back when I used to draw most of the time I wouldn't finish because I was disgusted with my work it wouldn't turn out anything like I wanted. So maybe that's the problem I have with my writing. Also I can't seem to get it to flow. I know what I see but I'm still having trouble putting it into words that flow on paper like music. I think that has to do with lack of education. I've search for tips on line for writing fiction in third person limited but I haven't really found anything useful other than finding out Harry Potter was written in third person limited. So at least that's a book I can kind of study and use as a guide. I try to remind my self that it's not good writing that makes a story good it's good editing. I guess I should stop worrying about all the spelling and grammar and what not and just get the story down. If I accomplish nothing else in life (not counting raising children) please God let me finish this book.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Mark my words

Okay, so it's been forever and a day since I blogged but on a good note I've written two more chapters. However... I have discovered a blog called the Query Shark and it's not only very informative it's unbelievable frightening. I never imagined these are the lengths I'd have to go to. I mean, writing alone is hard work. But now I have to follow strict guidelines for query letters. Just when I think I've gotten a handle on what's going on, I'm thrown for another loop.I think that I have a great story. I think that my readers would not only relate I believe they would find themselves slipping into the story. I believe it feels real like you've read about a day in your own life only better. I'm still just stumbling with the flow of words. Writing in third person with a limited view I feel like I'm starting all my sentences with "She". Then I read posts from this query shark and as helpful as they are, they're harsh, very harsh. I already feel like an idiot who's "behind" with out having someone yell it at me. The thing that continues to drive me is the fact that I want to do this. I want to continue to do this. I just keep having to go back to all the helpful e-articles I've read on how writing a good book isn't about good writing it's about good editing. But at this rate, my book won't be ready at least for another year. I'm afraid I'll be tore to shreds for my past/present tense of writing. Well, now I'm just babbling randomly. I'll keep working. I want to  finish my book.If for no other reason I just want to see it complete and polished to my my liking.